Let's dive in...
I'm failing most my classes. I haven't seen any grades or anything yet, but i'm positive that i am. I haven't been to class in nearly 3 weeks. I've most likely missed a few quizzes and stuff...i don't know what i'm gonna do. I wanna just drop the classes and try again next semester; if i do that however, it'll be like my parents spent $1000 on me for nothing. However, if i just go ahead and fail all my classes, my GPA goes down the hole. A black hole.
I'm also at a loss as to what me and sonia are. I guess we're still boyfriend and girlfriend...but in my mind it's over. I just don't want to carry on. But Sonia keeps on acting as if we never broke up in the first place. In her journal she writes vehemently; things like "why are you still in my heart" or something to that effect. She still wants us to be together...she loves me. But i don't love her back.
What's worse is my inability to bring it up whenever we're together. When she comes over or calls me, i still play the part of "boyfriend". I just can't NOT do it.
I hit my first handrail the other day. It was awesome...me, bryan and mike were just coming home from a mediocre session at Cross Timbers and Central. I was like, "hey, let's go to Chisolm Trail". Bryan didn't care. Mike had no right to say anything, as he hadn't really skated at all.
Anyway, we got there and i started trying the handrail. We had to wax it up with the minimal amount of wax we had, but after that it slid okay. After my third lock-on, i got all the way down. Mike even recorded it on his nifty digital camcorder.
I'm really hoping to get my job back at Barnes and Noble cafe. Seriously. I hate my job at the Doral...the job duties are fine. The pay is okay. The tips are amazing. But i just hate the people i work with. A few are okay, but my superiors are just big dicks. My boss, Brian, always treats me as if i'm completely incompetent. Honestly, he acts as if everyday is my first day, and i am a complete and utter moron who can't do his job. This bitch Nadia does that also, although she's been getting better about it.
Anway, last friday i went downtown with Jaymi and Sonia to hang out and skate. At B&N, i found out that they needed some people in the cafe. Sweet! I'm hoping that if i get hired, i'll be able to work full time. Hell, maybe i can even become a lead. I can hope...
Well, i really need to get to sleep. Fuck, one of the main problems with me not going to school is from staying up too late...i wake up to my alarm and decide that i'm too tired to go to class...fuck.
Fuck fuck fuck.